Of course, we all say, “I choose freedom!” But do we?
Every time we say “I can’t…” we are giving into fear – fear of failure, fear of the unknown, fear of looking stupid.
I just returned from 3 weeks, 8000kms drive Mansfield-Darwin return with my son. By the time we left I was carrying the burden of other people’s fears. “It’s a looong way” they said, “The petrol is twice the price.” Someone hinted we might get mauled by wild dogs, “Make sure you stay on the right side of the dog fence.” Others warned of breaking down, victim to the next axe murderer that drove past, or dying of thirst or exposure. I’m not kidding, only very few people said “Go for it, you’ll love it!”
I comforted myself by remembering how we had loved our time in China after similar fears had been levelled at us – “You’re taking you son to China?” If experience had taught me anything it had taught me that fear is a liar, that the fear of the journey is usually more painful than the journey itself.
Nevertheless it got to me, the fear, and I drove out of country Victoria full of foreboding. It made the early part of my journey harder than it needed to be, carrying that heavy load… (The metaphor now so clear to me, the burden of fear is so debilitating…)
Back home and I carry that sense of freedom with me, into my work as a writer and plans for the future, conversations and creations, thankful for the journey from fear to freedom, reconnected once again with pure inspiration – my own and other’s.